The book of the poem, Sometimes a Wild God, has gone on sale in the Hedgespoken Press online shop. This has been a long work and Rima and I are truly delighted with what we’ve created. The boxes of books arrived on Thursday and we’ve spent much of the last weeks getting the shop ready. It is the first production from Hedgespoken Press and it costs £7.50 plus p&p. Here are some preview pictures of it:

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But, listen. I need your help to spread the word about the book. We have no great marketing machine behind us, only the fine and mighty power of word-of-mouth. So, if you have been moved by this poem, please tell your friends and spread the word (and links to the shop…) on facebook, twitter, tumblr, wherever you roam… And, of course, please buy a copy, and then a copy for your friend, and then one spare to give to the unexpected stranger you stumble across one day who needs to read the words for themselves. Go to your library and your local bookshop and ask them if they’re stocking it – it should be on their funky all-the-books-in-the-world (almost) computer systems by now…

Thank you all for your continued comments and emails about this poem – I had no idea at all what was in store when I wrote it, only that the first line had been haunting me for months. Sometimes a Wild God has opened strange doors for me, and continues to have a life of its own. Something seems to have happened that is far beyond my understanding, and that is exactly as it should be. Poetry is a form of magic, and don’t let anyone tell you anything different. This word-spell will hopefully now reach more people than ever, and stray far beyond the internet.

The shop is open now. There are close-ups that you can zoom in on and everything. Go and have a look.


Coming very soon – the SOMETIMES A WILD GOD book!


All being well, tomorrow will see the delivery of many, many copies of the work that Rima and I have been working on for months, in between raising our lovely boy and moving the Hedgespoken truck-conversion forward and moving from our house into a small yurt and occasionally breathing and all the while trying to earn some money to keep the wrong kind of wolves from the door…


Yes, it’s the book of SOMETIMES A WILD GOD!

It has 6 internal illustrations by Rima Staines and a beautiful cover also by her. It’s A6 (that’s 4.2″x5.9″ – pocket-size) and is printed on 100% recycled paper, with a sturdy card cover, by a workers’ co-op in the UK. Words and layout are all by me, Tom Hirons. It’s got an ISBN – 978-0-9933656-0-7, no less – and here are some grainy, watermarked previews of a few of the internal images to give you a taste. Better shots of the book in all its glory will be accompanied by fanfare and the glugging of nerve tonics when the boxes of books arrive at our door…

This has been a long time coming. Originally conceived as a perk for the Hedgespoken crowdfunder, to raise funds to convert a vintage Bedford lorry into a travelling off-grid storytelling theatre and home, it’s our first foray into the world of producing our own books as Hedgespoken Press. If this goes well, you can expect to see more soon, so do let us know what you think by leaving reviews at the shop once it’s published.

But listen – if you’d like to order the book, click on the button below to go to the newly painted-and-decorated HEDGESPOKEN SHOP! And if the shop’s not open yet, you can sign up to be emailed an alert the very minute the doors are flung wide…


If you’re waiting for a copy of this as a perk from the Hedgespoken crowdfunder, your wait is almost over. Before we post out any orders from the shop, you’ll hopefully be clutching your very own hot-off-the-press copy in your own home. Rima and I are very proud of what we’ve created, and we hope you’ll love it as much as we do.

Watching a Kingfisher on the Waveney at Bungay

You need to stay still to learn
Anything worth learning.
In the forest, by the river,
At dawn, or dusk or midnight,
Sit down, be quiet and
Soon enough, you’ll hear
And see your fill. Continue reading Watching a Kingfisher on the Waveney at Bungay

Fox body and lambs

I have news for you; the stag bells, winter snows, summer has gone.
Wind high and cold, the sun low, short its course, the sea running high.
Deep red the bracken, its shape is lost; the wild goose has raised its accustomed cry.
Cold has seized the birds’ wings; season of ice, this is my news.

Irish, author unknown, 9th century.

(from A Celtic Miscellany, selected and translated by Kenneth Hurlstone Jackson.)

Winter is here. Imbolc has been and gone. The snowdrops are out and the days are short; they disappear into night before I know they’ve begun. All my animal instincts have been leaning towards hibernation, but here in this World of the Ever-Doing, hibernation is not known. And now, even as I write of Winter, there is a taste of Spring in the air. Quick, quick! Write before the season changes again… These are fast times.

Two massive events are making waves in my soul’s world. If you have read Rima’s recent beautiful blog post, you’ll know what one of them is. It is a joyous thing, and I will come to it shortly. The other is not a joyous thing, but a strong thing and a painful thing, not unrelated to the first, and one of which it is hard to write.

This first news, though. If you don’t already know, here is the joyous news: Fatherhood and I converge rapidly. There is, already, a child whose feet and knees and elbows and bony bottom I know, whose body is making Rima now uncomfortable and will soon be coming into this world to turn our lives upside down and show us who he or she is. Friends, this is remarkable news by any stretch of our very agile imaginations.

In less than a week, our due date is here. What marvel, what incomparable mystery is this?

What can I tell you about approaching fatherhood that is not already known by fathers and unfathomable to those who are not in this place? Only these few things that my mind right now can grasp:

  • I feel just ready, age 42, to be a good father. But that is better than I had hoped for. There is little left undone that I can foresee wishing I’d done before the responsibilities of fatherhood arrived. I have been plenty mad and foolish and selfish and drunk enough already in this life. I’m not quite ready for the retirement home, but my thoughts are not of hedonistic or solipsistic satisfactions. And this, I believe, may be a rare thing.
  • a pregnant woman in the last six weeks of her pregnancy should be treated like a queen. Upon approaching her, your role (yes, yours, and mine) is to make her life easier and to protect the growing life that she carries. In her womb is the future of the world. A woman in the last few weeks of pregnancy should be approached as if she were a Goddess. In fact, of course, she is a Goddess. Your own wants and needs are secondary, at best.
  • as the birth of my child rapidly approaches, my priorities are changing fast. Each week that goes by, I care less about anything other than the wellbeing of Rima and the unknown child in her womb. I accept that this may be a permanent shift, but hope – at some point – to begin caring about other people again. Right now, my heart has space only for these two beings to whom I am connected by unfathomable, unbreakable golden threads. You’ll be glad to hear that I’ve put down my acupuncture needles for now.
  • it may well be that nothing in my life prior to this really has any meaning in the way that fatherhood is about to have meaning. My invisible ancestors are crowding around this dark Devon house, drinking tea and smoking cigars. As the hour of birth approaches, unfathomable magic crackles – heaven and earth are bending towards each other in the alembic of my Rima’s womb. Nothing I’ve ever known is like this magic.

So, I am deliriously excited and – in between the busy ways we have of filling the days with preparations, both mundane and esoteric – I am attempting to approach this momentous time in some kind of manner befitting its magnitude…

But, this is the year of two births.

One, I have just told you about. The other is metaphorical, but also profound. You’ll have followed the progress of Hedgespoken, I’m sure. This is the year in which this travelling story-wagon, theatre and home will be born, and so our own newborn child will be raised surrounded by the magic and madness of lives built on stories and a love of the wilds, lives lived on the road, by fire and water, beneath the stars. I consider this as good a way to spend childhood as any and better than most, to be fair.

Of course, there are many, many preparations that must be made for any birth. Some are obvious; some more subtle. Some have been happening for years; some are only now apparent in their bright urgency of need. Some are sweet as a soul; others yet can taste of thorns. And so we come to the second event moving the waters of my soul-world…

Let me tell you about my journey to Anglesey.

I have written before about Macha, my much-loved lurcher. I have had her since she was just a pup – I can still remember getting electric shocks from her when I first picked her up. This is no lie or poetic conceit: real electric shocks, in the palm of my hand. I’ve not a clue what was going on; to this day, it’s a mystery. I took it as a sign that she was the dog for me. And so she was and so it has been; we’ve travelled a long way together, from Scotland, to a life in Wales, and here, to Dartmoor, and this life.

But listen now. Long Rima and I have wondered how Macha would fare as a travelling dog, in a lorry, with a young child. Given how easily she is frighted by flags and crowds and noise, we’ve tried to imagine how she might be at fairs and festivals, where Hedgespoken would be a hive of creative activity. Long we’ve known that this would be an unbearable strain on her, and on us. And long we’ve known that something had to change in this imagined future in order for us all to be happy, Macha and us two and the new-one-soon-to-come.

And so, some months ago, we began the arduous task of finding a new home for Macha. It’s an ordeal I’ve struggled to come to terms with, and Rima has undertaken many of its steps, and here I thank her for it – only when I’ve recollected how unhappy Macha has been when we’re on the road have I been able to still the critical voices who have called me ‘traitor’ for even thinking of re-homing her. Only when I’ve imagined life in the truck with a small baby and an unhappy dog have I remembered clearly, sharply that obstinacy can lead to cruelty, even with the best intentions.

Our efforts to re-home Macha with friends came to nothing – we tried, and friends tried, and we thank them for their wisdom and honesty in knowing that Macha’s needs were beyond their circumstances. In the end, having exhausted every option, and heeding the advice of many who counselled that we should not attempt to do this ourselves, we turned to Hounds First. I am thankful we did and would recommend them to anyone who finds themselves in the same situation.

Thus, a few weeks ago now, I drove to Anglesey to take Macha to a foster home, where she would stay to be assessed and to live until a permanent home was found.

I’ve attempted several times over the last weeks to write about this journey, but the words have all come out of me dry, brittle, full of news and empty of either grace or poetry. This is my last attempt to tell the tale of our journey to that strange, myth-rich isle. It was a strong journey, a painful one; it was a powerful pilgrimage, a devastating and necessary act of letting-go.

In wilderness rites of passage work, we talk of the stage that begins a wilderness fast as SEVERANCE – the one who is about to fast and undergo rites of passage must in some way sever from their previous life, their everyday existence, in order to make space for the sacred, to enter some kind of dreaming-space or in-between we call the THRESHOLD. Powerfully aware that becoming a father is the greatest rite of passage yet, this journey was to be the strongest of several acts of severance in preparation for my rites, the emptying-out of my previous life in order to allow space for the other. But it was not a severance that I wished to make; it was one that – had I believed there were any alternative – I would have avoided.

Now, finally, in the umpteenth draft of this post, late at night, I understand why the words have come out dry and brittle. It is because there is so little to write about that journey that is suitable for such a bare and public scrutiny as the internet. It is too sacred, too powerful for me to write about this way. I have spoken out loud about my journey, its magic and pain, to friends. Just this Sunday, I held a gathering of fathers at the nearby piece of land known as Epona, and I talked there about this painful time that precedes such a time of joy. But that speaking was with my feet firmly on the ground, with fire and earth and air and water and men whose ears were open for the meaning of the tale. Forgive me, internet – not everything is appropriate for writing here.

We are perhaps too used to using the language of reportage for describing things that would better be approached through the circuitous routes of poetry and riddle, allusion and inference. Like hunter-cultures who never refer to their prey by name or with direct speech, perhaps we need ways of speaking about the powerful events of our lives that are not so bald and utilitarian as this.

So, for all my wishes to share something of this time with you, there ends up with little for me to say. I was away for three days. There was snow and ice. It was a journey that entered sacred territory. I understood most of it only after it occurred. I think it may have changed me forever, powerfully.

But I will tell you this part of the story, as it remains insistent:

Two hours before I delivered Macha to the remote farm where I was to leave her, I visited the burial mound of Bryn Celli Ddu. It is an extraordinary place – you can read all about it and I encourage you to visit on a cold, bright winter’s day as I did.

But, as I approached the site, with Macha, I had to follow a blackthorn-lined path along the edges of two fields. Not hurrying, I turned to the field to my right, to see what message the land might have for me.

There lay a fox, dead, with crows picking at its head. Never has a fox looked more like a dog than in that first glimpse. It was a strong image to see, no question, and stronger in that moment than most I could have imagined.

Eventually, I pulled my gaze away and, just glancing, looked into the field on the left of the path.

The first lambs of the winter. Really, the first lambs I had seen this year, gambolling, leaping, charged with the fizz and sparkle of new life.

Endings, beginnings; dyings and birthings. Letting go and receiving. These are not trivial matters – even less so when you have driven 300 miles through snow and ice to find a Neolithic burial site and say goodbye.

I could tell you more. I could tell you about Cader Idris; I could tell you about my father and my grandfather, whose graves are side by side in a small mid-Wales village, and how I visited them and what I said and left them; I could tell you about arriving back home, about Merrivale. I could tell you about the incredible beauty of Snowdonia and how I laughed and cried and the almost unbearable pain in my heart at letting Macha go. But these stories are for other places, other times, other language.

I will tell you only these few things:

Ten days ago, we visited Grimspound, because the day was beautiful and there was ice and snow and a white sky and we are trying to show our Nearly-Born the places we love. The ravens were on the air and we stood by the leat, listening to the gurgle of the snow-melt stream and the buzzards crying.

And last week, we heard that Macha has a new home, in Snowdonia. It sounds perfect. That night, I dreamed that she had been cured of a long illness and I woke with the pain in my heart relieved. There is still grieving, but it is not poison.

We miss Macha. We both dream of her frequently. If you know us and know her, you’ll also know the deep love we have for her. I had never thought that I would have to let her go, but now that I have, I see even more clearly that it had to be so.

And, as that grieving matures, space is opening up in which to welcome our child, this person we are so very, very excited to meet. Our home is ready. Everything is as good as we can make it. We make prayers for Macha, and for a good labour, for a happy, healthy child and in the hope that we will be good parents.

There was so much more that I thought I had to say, but it seems appropriate now that as the moments of our threshold approach, there is little that can be said.

Everything is changing. Who we will be on the other side of that birthing threshold is unknown. Wish us well, send your prayers and await news. We will be internet-quiet for a while to come, but we will send word. There is nothing left to do but wait, and listen, and dream.

Note: Hounds First have been amazing all through this. They are currently running a huge fundraising drive – they’re desperately short of funds. If you are moved by this post to support them and their work, please donate at the PayPal link on their homepage here.

Three weeks to find our way home!

Hedgespoken Tom:

Only three weeks to go on the Hedgespoken crowdfunder! We need your assistance now! Help us find our way home through this metaphorical jungle!

Originally posted on Hedgespoken:

So. It feels like we’ve entered another phase of this strange and befuddling funding journey – we’re not on the lamplit path to the home-springs yet, at all: we’re still traversing the rocky chasms of uncertainty and the vine-thick forests of hopefulness. We have only three weeks left to raise another £8,000. It’s a nail-biting, non-stop exploration – thank you for coming with us this far!

Please help us find our way through this unknown landscape – if you’re planning on supporting us, now is a really good time to do it! And please keep spreading the word! If you have a network of followers, share our campaign with them – if you have the ear of fabulously rich people, whisper into it (assuming it’s still attached) – if you have suggestions and ideas and maps of the strange forest of funding, let us know!

We have some…

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If you’ve been in some kind of slumber recently, or you wandered off into a darkened room and forgot how to get out, or if you’ve foregone the dubious pleasures of the dreaded facebook and twitter, then you may have missed the fact that Rima and I have been hatching an exciting plan…

Hedgespoken - a vehicle for the imagination

Hedgespoken by Starlight

Hedgespoken is a travelling off-grid theatre-storytelling-wonder-truck, and our new home

With its drop-down stage, fancy awning and proscenium arch, Hedgespoken will serve as a stage wherever it goes. Whether it’s Tom and Rima telling tales and making mischief with handmade puppet shows, or it’s other actors, musicians or sword-swallowers using the stage-space as part of the Hedgespoken travelling show, our aim is to spread a little old magic by doing what we love. Hedgespoken has the wherewithal to act as a mini-theatre, a cabaret stage or acoustic music venue, anywhere. Perhaps your village green, or that disused urban space, wayside or park – Hedgespoken arrives, makes magic, plants seeds of imagination, and then leaves, in the tradition of wandering bards, travelling storytellers and itinerant puppet theatres and circuses that are so much part of our heritage.

Yes, this most recent creation of ours is a little different – it’s the culmination of several years of dreaming and sketching and talking and wondering that began the first week that Rima and I met in the Dartmoor woods (but that’s another story entirely, not for here!) This is going to be a vessel of extraordinary beauty, vagabond magic and wild imagination, and we are excited more than words can say to be embarking on the project.

But. We need your help.

We’re raising funds to make Hedgespoken, from rebuilding the back of this beautiful Bedford RL (which was what was under the tarp in my Birthday Wishes post at the beginning of last year), to getting all the right licenses and what-have-you to take this thing on the road, to having a covered canvas area for our audience and so on. This is a major project, and so we’ve launched a crowdfunder – you may have seen it already.

I’d love it if you were able to support us! We’ve got some very funky perks – Rima’s artwork (in singles or bundles or originals, however you like), my Smickelgrim masks, the first copies of our collaborative edition of SOMETIMES A WILD GOD (which I believe some of you will like, even some dedicated and signed ones for the collectors…) and clocks and calendars and all sorts more.


But even if you can’t donate your funds, you can help us by spreading the word (and there’s prizes for getting us the most contributions) and getting more people out there to hear about what we’re up to. We’re doing well – we’ve raised over £10,000 in just over a week (yes, that’s right – and we can’t quite believe it either) – but we’ve got a long way to go to reach our goal by the end of November.

Consider this. Have you enjoyed reading my work here? Well, I’ve enjoyed you enjoying it, too, and I love sharing it. There’s no fee and that’s the way I want it to be. So, here’s a way for you to help Rima and I both on the next step of our creative journey – if we can do this thing (and we will, that I know) it’s going to lead to extraordinary things. Coyopa, unchained. The Hermitage, on wheels. Great things beckon, many of them with masks and stilts and words from the wild. We are going to do this. Watch us.

So, please, ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls, friends and relations, one and all, dig deep in your pockets if you’ve got them, someone else’s if you haven’t, or perhaps consider putting your mother’s gold teeth in the pawn-shop, and help us build Hedgespoken – a vehicle for the imagination!

The Hedgespoken Crowdfunding page



Merrivale is a complex of Bronze Age megalithic monuments on the west side of Dartmoor in Britain, including a double stone row of approximately 250m length, a stone circle and an imposing 3.8m standing stone. You can read more about it here.
The image above is a version of the photograph here – I’ve tried to find the photographer, but can’t. Do let me know if it’s one of yours…

Between stones, over hill,
I am stretched out fully,
To a great and impossible height.

My fingers touch the horizon;
My face presses heaven;
My back is all green grass and rock.

This is my rite of night-surrender
To this moorland Earth and the dark, dark sky:

I am insubstantial and immense,
Like a cloud or a wish or a song.

The sky is a bear’s mouth.
It is blacker than ink or oil, or
A pool of dead water in a dream.
Continue reading Merrivale